The Beauty of My Pain

Many people have great difficulty understanding why a loving God would allow such terrible things to happen to people. Especially when the person seems to be a good or innocent person. I can't speak for all people who have been through great pain, but I can speak to the purpose of my pain. This is the purpose of my pain: that I should lead others to the knowledge of Who God is.

Getting To The Truth of Things!

Disclaimer: I do not profess to have a corner on the Truth. No one person does. The Bible clearly states that there are things that are only known to God. These are pretty much just ideas that have been assaulting me as of late and I am expressing them here in an effort to congeal them into something more solid for my intellect to digest. Please feel free to comment. Honest and open discourse is frequently key to understanding things more fully due to the nature of containing more than one way of thinking. Neither is this an attempt to display self-perfection. I have none.

The Value of a Gift

     Have you ever been given a gift that may have seemed small or even worthless to some but it was truly priceless and was cherished by you?

Spiritual Gift?

Painful
God's every heartbeat can be felt:
Raw emotion running through my veins.
Sometimes I can physically feel
The throbbing of rent flesh against
The serrated knife.
Though I only partake in part,
It's more than my heart can contain.
Humanity is weak and fragile.
Sometimes the intensity threatens to shatter me.



Overwhelming
Self control is not optional.
I feel I can't cope some days.
You can't see the storm within the calm;
I can't let you know
When I look at you - no not look, see.
You feel that funny feeling, and
You feel outrage at my invasion.
What you don't know is,
Sometimes I don't want to see.


Misunderstood
People shy away.
They don't know why.
I may always be an island
In a sea of people,
Because God gave me eyes to feel,
And that will forever repel
Those who have pain to hide.


Rejected
I can't find a friend:
Someone who sees me
The way I see them.
There is no need to fear me.
Far be it from me to condemn!
The same God in my heart
Loved me while I hid too.


See me
I can feel the same love He has for you.
I know it fully;
It renders me breathless.
Many will struggle to know the heart of God.
I struggle because I do.

Forgiveness

"...and forgive us our sins, as we have forgiven those who sin against us." Matthew 6:12 (New Living Translation)

Sharing Pain

Don't ever be afraid to share your pain with someone when God nudges your heart. It could be that He is leading you to share with that person for a reason.

One of The Coolest Papers I Have Ever Written!

Patricia S. Taylor
12 October 2010


Tryout 4: Idolatry and Displacement: Redefining the Oedipus Complex
        
          In essence, a psychological literary criticism is a study of how psychological theories can be applied to better understand a literary text. Frequently, psychological criticisms make strong use of Sigmund Freud’s theories when investigating literary texts. This is probably a result of the extensive use of literary texts by Freud himself to test and prove his theories (Lynn 196). Historically, the Holy Bible has been a literary text that has been difficult for the average reader to understand. I wish to illuminate the much debated interpretation of the word hate in Luke 14:26 by redefining the Freudian theory of the Oedipus Complex in terms of projecting one’s yearning for God onto one’s mother.

"AHA!" Moment - Jehovah Jireh

Jehovah Jireh
          I have been struggling with worry for the past few weeks. As hard as I tried, I could not stop worrying about my finances. I was feeling so much in despair that I might have to drop out of school to take yet another job in order to provide for my son and myself. I felt like something was going wrong. I started to question God and myself because I had thought that I knew my calling. I had truly believed that I was supposed to be in school getting my education during this season in my life. I did not understand why I was facing this potential change.

Random Wisdom and Funny Stuff #2

It is so amazing that the moment we submit to God's will alone, we begin to see insurmountable barriers blown away. Our faithful God opens up pathways that did not exist so that we may fulfill the mission He has called us to. Thank you God that you equip the called rather than calling the equipped!

A Problem As I See It

At the risk of becoming a pariah, I must now take a stand. I am really weary of the theological/doctrine debates that have been raging around me lately. The question I want to pose is why familiarize ourselves with what influential people say and twist Scripture to fit their doctrine?

An Exhortation

First of all, I commend you on your choice to be a shepherd to God's flock and to dedicate your life to bringing lost souls to Christ. Yours is an extremely difficult job and is getting more and more difficult each day. I pray that God will be with you and watch over you as you fulfill the mission that He has assigned to you.

Unusual Witness

Hahahaha...this is what I wrote for a secular lit class today! I wanted to switch out literary works and wasn't sure what I wanted to work with all semester until my professor made a comment that the theory we were working with at the time worked under the impression that literary perfection should seem as if it fell from Heaven, complete and infallible in and of itself. She also suggested using a canon. Well...there is only one canon I know that fell from Heaven and is complete and infallible...the Holy Bible! So here was my paper! Enjoy...

Random Wisdom and Funny Stuff #1

I will not look for perfection in another person until i have attained perfection myself. Since i know this will never be, let me learn to accept things as they are, and stop manipulating them into changing. Let me look for a wiser approach to life from myself, not from other people.

Speechless

If I could but describe the unending, unmeasurable flood of love, joy, and peace that has been poured upon me since the Holy Spirit caught my heart on fire...but man's words are sorely and utterly useless to explain because nothing man knows can compare with the love that is in Christ Jesus.

"AHA!" Moment - Changing Desires

Ok, so I had this "AHA!" moment this morning while I was driving to school. I used to always think that living a Godly life meant that I would deprive myself of all the things in life that were not about Him.

Thoughts on Psalm 139:23-24

Psalm 139:23-24 (NKJV)
"Search me, O God, and know my heart.; test me and know my thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends You, and lead me along the path of everlasting life."

"AHA!" Moment - FEAR and Conforming

Ok so I am working on something that God has placed upon my heart lately. I truly have no idea WHAT it is yet...but I'm working on it. I know that sounds a little strange but it's kinda like how a sculptor talks about this huge piece of rock he is carving on. Sometimes they say that the art already exists within the rock and they have no idea what it will be until it comes out and they are finished. They are bringing the art out of the stone... Anyway, I guess that is a good metaphor.

My Personal Pentecost!

I have been praying for something specific ever since the day I rededicated my life to God. I have been praying for God to reveal Himself to me and to reveal His calling for my life. It has been about a month and a half and my prayer has now been answered! Well, sort of... God does have a habit of only revealing a portion of things to come.