The Beauty of My Pain

Many people have great difficulty understanding why a loving God would allow such terrible things to happen to people. Especially when the person seems to be a good or innocent person. I can't speak for all people who have been through great pain, but I can speak to the purpose of my pain. This is the purpose of my pain: that I should lead others to the knowledge of Who God is.

Getting To The Truth of Things!

Disclaimer: I do not profess to have a corner on the Truth. No one person does. The Bible clearly states that there are things that are only known to God. These are pretty much just ideas that have been assaulting me as of late and I am expressing them here in an effort to congeal them into something more solid for my intellect to digest. Please feel free to comment. Honest and open discourse is frequently key to understanding things more fully due to the nature of containing more than one way of thinking. Neither is this an attempt to display self-perfection. I have none.

The Value of a Gift

     Have you ever been given a gift that may have seemed small or even worthless to some but it was truly priceless and was cherished by you?

Spiritual Gift?

Painful
God's every heartbeat can be felt:
Raw emotion running through my veins.
Sometimes I can physically feel
The throbbing of rent flesh against
The serrated knife.
Though I only partake in part,
It's more than my heart can contain.
Humanity is weak and fragile.
Sometimes the intensity threatens to shatter me.



Overwhelming
Self control is not optional.
I feel I can't cope some days.
You can't see the storm within the calm;
I can't let you know
When I look at you - no not look, see.
You feel that funny feeling, and
You feel outrage at my invasion.
What you don't know is,
Sometimes I don't want to see.


Misunderstood
People shy away.
They don't know why.
I may always be an island
In a sea of people,
Because God gave me eyes to feel,
And that will forever repel
Those who have pain to hide.


Rejected
I can't find a friend:
Someone who sees me
The way I see them.
There is no need to fear me.
Far be it from me to condemn!
The same God in my heart
Loved me while I hid too.


See me
I can feel the same love He has for you.
I know it fully;
It renders me breathless.
Many will struggle to know the heart of God.
I struggle because I do.

Forgiveness

"...and forgive us our sins, as we have forgiven those who sin against us." Matthew 6:12 (New Living Translation)